Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Back to work and other thoughts...

We had a great easter. It was nice that my family decided to keep their gathering mainly family only - instead of all of my mom's friends who I don't like. :)
It was so nice to spend time with everyone. No drama with BIL because he didn't meet my FIL's lady friend. FIL did talk about her and I thought BIL was going to blow a gasket, but he was fine. He was happy we cooked for him -his favorite, beef fajitas.

Oh, and I posted awhile back on the n.est boards how my sister had not come to visit me since I had the baby. She did send flowers to the hospital, but hadn't seen the baby in person. Well, she made a huge effort - for her- driving to my city on Saturday. She never drives alone without her entourage. She even knitted booties for our baby the day she came- very quickly (faster than I can crochet). We also got to spend time with her on Easter as she changed her plans to spend more time with all the family. It was so nice. When I posted this at 2months, that she had not visited someone on the msg boards stated that maybe she was dealing w/infertility (as that would be the only acceptable excuse for not seeing her nephew -as the poster put it). Well, I know she wants children badly, but I asked her and she said she isn't trying until next year or the following year (she is 34 now). She will go directly to IVF even without problems since she is rich and can - doesn't need insurance and because she and her DH travel all the time-not together but for their work. They can't really TIME pregnancy. I think she does have some reproductive issues though.

I'm back to work as of yesterday and it is hard getting back into the swing of things.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Happy Easter!

Thanks for the comments - glad to be back ladies! I will be posting more. I have a lot to talk about.

I hope everyone has a Happy Easter. What are the plans? My brother in law in town this weekend. He is very odd and he is going to be 40 this year and not married. He resents people who are married. Nothing wrong with not being married and 40, but he really is sad about it. I feel bad for him and wish he would meet someone. I think he has really high expectations for a girl and that is a little unrealistic. He even resents his dad who is dating again after his mom passed away 2 yrs ago. I think it is great his dad is out there dating as he is very lonely. We can't spent 100% of our weekends with my fatherinlaw. It's almost like his son is jealous that his dad can go out on dates, but he can't find a date. It will be interesting if his dad introduces him to his new lady friend this weekend. I see a possible blow-out occuring. It is not uncommon for them to fight. My BIL will probably not be too happy with her (she is very nice I met her 2wks ago). My brother in law is not very generous - he expects his dad or us to pay for him ALL THE TIME. He got our son a $3-5 toy when he was born that he can't even play with for months (still too young now). My sisters did SO much for me and the baby and bought us so much -even gave us a ton of handmedowns, but he couldn't spend even $10 for us. Ok, I'll try to be nice now. Please tell me I'm being shallow and selfish.
Oh, and another thing... He HATES eating at home, so he expects us to take him OUT to a restaurant and PAY for him. Oh, he makes really good money, but we think he has money problems. I invited FIL and BIL over to our house for a cookout this weekend. It's really hard to go out to eat with the little one and especially since he goes to bed early. I bet BIL is unhappy that we are staying 'in'. His dad is retired and really can't pay for him at all. They got in a fight about this last time as his dad asked him to pay. Ok, enough venting about him...honestly I love my family and I'm happy to see my BIL. I just hope he doesn't cause drama with the new girlfriend. I wish he would meet someone as I think that would improve his mood - he won't do the online thing though.

We are also going out of town to visit some of my family. It will be the first time many meet our little one. We have some cousins from new jersey who we haven't seen in about a year or more. It will be great to catch up.

I have to admit that I'm not a big 'Easter' fan. It's my least favorite holiday - not sure why. I am weird about eggs - only liked them cooked a certain way. So growing up, I didn't like hard boiled eggs, deviled eggs, etc. I also don't like peeps and don't care for marshmallow too much. I eat it - if camping or on smores, but don't like it in candies. Easter was always so hot where we live so I always felt really yucky. A few easters ago, it did sleet though.

Monica, you are right. Bluebonnets are horrible this year due to lack of rain. That's why I think this company planted a ton in their parking lot - it's a ton of them and GORGEOUS. Bluebonnets are really scarce this year. It's a great location! Take Autumn there! I said amber before sorry. I think your dog is so adorable. Is she a border collie or brittany spaniel mix?

Ariel, you are right. We shouldn't look at it like that. Every m/c is a tragic event. It's hard to think about what would have been. I see girls on the message boards with children who would have been the same age as my first son and it breaks my heart. I think 'wow, he would be this old'. There is that constant reminder when you see someone who got pregnant around the same time as you.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Long time, no chat...

Hey everyone! I'm glad to be posting again. I missed everyone! I have to say it is so hard for me to find time to post or even check in on other people's blogs. My son is a handful. He likes to be in my arms. I will find time - it is getting better.

It's been 1 year that I had my miscarriage after my frozen transfer. Well, a year ago today I got my beta for FET #1. Shortly after that, I had a miscarriage.

I completely forgot about all of this until I went to an acupuncture appt today. She reminded me that it was exactly one year ago that I went in for non-doubling betas. I decided to go to acupuncture today for relaxation and for possible help in my supply of breastmilk. I'm doing daycare trial so I had a few hours without my son. I go to a place that specializes in reproductive health. The acupuncturist did points to help with breastfeeding - we will see if that helps. I really missed going to acupuncture. It is very relaxing. Of course, I had to rush to a dentist appt right afterwards - so my tranquil demeanor wore off.

The acupuncturist was telling me about one of the owners who had the same thing - an early miscarriage and she was pregnant the next month. It really made me wonder if acupuncture really had helped me get pregnant - even though I think our problems were more male factor. She said that the owner was thankful for that miscarriage or she wouldn't have her daughter. It's hard to think about but we wouldn't have our son if we had gone full term with our first baby boy. I really miss our first son and our life will never be the same since we went through that. But we are thankful everyday for the joy our son brings us...

A girl on my message board lost her twins at 24w1d this past weekend. I'm not sure if she had IC or placental abruption, but I'm so sad for her loss. My thoughts are with her and her family. She went through many IVFs before she got pregnant with these twins.

For those in A.ustin, we found a great place for bluebonnet pictures. It's at J.ester and 2222 (from 360 turn right onto 2222). It's a parking lot where they have planted bluebonnets and indian paintbrushes. We got some great pictures and it doesn't look like you are on the side of the road or in a parking lot.

I hope everyone is well. I'm praying for all my online friends - for sucessful pregnancies.