Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I went to visit my son at the cemetary.

I had some extra time last week, so I stopped by to visit my son's grave. I didn't tell DH that I was going. I did tell him after the fact - we had lunch together...

It was sad to go, but do you know what made me more sad? I saw how many new additions there have been since I was there last. I spent time looking at other babies and some I guessed were not full term. (my assumption based on dates, etc). I spent time looking how people leave things for their children. I don't leave anything for my son and I really should. I had not visited since I was barely pregnant last year (I think).

Monica, if you are reading. I did visit your sons while I was there. I know you visit quite often. They are lucky to have a mommy like you!

I think I was crying more for all the people that have to visit there and it keeps growing more than crying for my own son. I know that sounds bad. I'm sad about my son, but I'm sad ANYONE has to go through a loss. I'm not sure if I am making sense.

I hope everyone has a peaceful Thanksgiving (if you celebrate it)! May you have a safe time with friends and family!